Two More Bottles of Wine
I had mediation with my husband and our attorneys yesterday. Nothing unexpected, well, maybe a little unexpected.
I had mediation with my husband and our attorneys yesterday. Nothing unexpected, well, maybe a little unexpected.
I know my writing at times is depressing. I guess writing about how I feel is how I cope with the bad times. It’s not where I stay all the time though. I get daily e-mails from an organization called Divorce Care that suggests ways to get through grief, anger, depression and other emotions and issues…
my Willow girl I’m wondering what kinds of traditions people have for the holidays? Especially anyone who doesn’t have their family nearby. Fortunately, most of the people who read this blog don’t appear to be in that situation. My family has traditions like measuring noses to see whose nose is the biggest. It’s not mine!…
“When traveling, some people prefer a nice smooth freeway and speeding to their destination as quickly as possible. I prefer side roads, stopping at weird looking shops, gawking at old houses and barns, and possibly ending up somewhere totally different than what I had planned.” — Maryisdom They say there are two seasons in Minnesota…
I found this video on YouTube. It’s been one of my favorite songs for many years, even though it makes me sad. Maybe I’ve always known in my heart that H wouldn’t stay with me forever. Maybe our worlds were just too far apart for me to hang on.
“Grief is like a bomber circling round and dropping its bombs each time the circle brings it overhead.” — C.S. Lewis, “A Grief Observed” How much more attractive a woman newly in love must be than a woman scorned and wrapped in grief. New love – all the wonderful possibilities, the unknown, the adventure, the…
I was going through some of my old papers, tossing out things I don’t need or will never have time to read. While doing this, I ran across something I wrote for New Years 2008. It was how I wanted my life to be and is written as though it’s already happened, since that’s supposed…
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That sounds very painful to me, like a day that must have left you drained beyond words. Take care of yourself. Do something nice for yourself (good idea, skipping the two bottles of wine). I’m thinking of you.
I’ve been following your blog for awhile but didn’t feel the NEED to comment until today.
I feel your pain, like I haven’t felt in years. When my own divorce occurred, I didn’t take the time to deal with it.
What you experienced on your ride home is called anxiety. Please make sure you have some help within calling distance. In my personal experience, it can be a precursor to panic attacks and in my case black outs.
Repeat after me…”and this, too, shall pass…” alternate with ” better days are coming”
I’m singing this one, quite a bit, these days
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DFG9dwolo3Q
My heart goes out to you. Too bad you just can’t turn the emotional pain off like a light-switch. The scars run very deep I’m sure. In time they will heal, in time you will get all this behind you. This I can say with authority, God has something and someone very special just for you. May He be your comfort and your strength right now. Take care of yourself and I’ll sure remember you in my prayers.
Have a better day just resting in His arms, ’cause he cares for YOU beautiful gal!!!
I’m so sorry you’re going through this Maery, it’s hardly fair.
I’ll bet when you find that perfect new place for you, you’ll make it really cute and with more YOU in it.
That does sound a lot like anxiety…but who can blame you.
home is where the heart is…. glad you made it back… heal well my friend
blessings
gp
I am so sorry!! You are in my thoughts, as always!!
That would be a tough day for anyone – don’t feel bad about feeling bad! And don’t feel like you have to grieve on anyone else’s time table. You will get through all this, but you will find your own way through.
Loads of love, love, love and bravery and support and sympathy and anything else you need.
Maery Rose…It sounds like you are getting to the final stages of this divorce. I sure hope you end up with something that you can use as a fresh start. Hang on woman! You are almost there. One day at a time…keep breathing. It’s amazing how your emotions can have such power over you. Anxiety can definitely play tricks on you. You seem to have a lot of support out here…and understanding for what you are going through. You can do this.
KB – My brain was still a bit muddled today but I went to work, then choir practice and tomorrow I’m getting together with a couple friends. I’m doing some ski research too. Trying to look forward.
Anonymous – Thanks for stopping by and commenting. Yesterday was another hill to climb. I’m sure there will be more.
Nezzy – Thanks for your prayers. That means a lot to me.
Lynn – Looking forward to seeing you guys tomorrow and eating lots of chocolate.
GP – I have GPS (God, Prayer, and Spirit) to guide me in moments like these.
PG – I miss you!
Dog Geek – Thanks for recognizing something that often people don’t get. It’s not that I’ve gone completely backwards but there are many layers to this grief to work through.
Roxanne – Thanks, thanks, thanks. =)
Lori – You must have been commenting at the same time I was cause you weren’t there a minute ago. I ran into someone today who said “You must be anxious to have this over with.” And actually, no I’m not. How can I be anxious for something I don’t want?
I guess I want the pain to end, but when the judge signs off on the divorce, I will be diving to a whole new depth of pain and I haven’t figured out yet how I’m going to protect myself from that. It will be one of many times that I really wish my sisters were here.
I’m so happy to see all these comments– all these women in your corner. Count me among them! I’m sorry you have to experience this pain.
One thing that worked for me during a tough time was writing what I wanted my life to look like a year ahead, and I wrote it as if it were already true. “When I get up the first thing i see is __” etc.
If you do this repeatedly, I don’t know if it puts something out there in the universe or what, but it works– you get there.
Hang in there hon.
What a sad day for you..I am sorry Maery for the rough patch in the road. Hang in there:)
Sue – I’ve been starting to think about doing something similar, kind of a vision for 2010 and beyond.
Far Side – It is sad, but at least I’m getting back up faster.
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