Drivel
Today has been a tough day. I was writing a post about my old dog, Willow, but couldn’t summon the energy or feeling to make it work.
I’m so worried about screwing up at my job right now. I work as part of a team to implement a new software system throughout the company. Our factories exist in several buildings. We are implementing in our third factory, with the fourth and largest building implementation to occur in November this year.
This week, I will spend two days supporting software training and two days doing the training. Because there are several shifts, training lasts from 7 AM to 10 PM on a couple days.
Another part of my job consists of documenting the new work instructions that people need, which is what I’m better at than I am at doing standup training.
Next week, I’ll be on the factory floor answering people’s questions from 5:30 AM to 4:30 PM.
To have so much going on at work when my brain is struggling to function and I haven’t been sleeping well, it’s just not a good thing. Did I mention that my husband and I work at the same company? It doesn’t get better than this…
It’s also not a good thing that the writing I do to express myself and cope feels like it’s left me.
I don’t want to drivel on about all the ugly things going on and how I’m not handling them all that well.
I have an image to keep going here.
So I hope you’ll forgive the lack of creativity I’m going through.
I will try to keep supporting all of you in your blogs. Right now, it’s much more pleasant to read about other people’s lives, than it is to write about my own.
But I’m sure that zany girl of the past will return, full of even more adventure and surprises.
If not, maybe Murphy can start writing this blog…
Mary, you know that you can write whatever you want and we will read it! We are here to listen. So keep it comin’!
Sorry to hear about work, that must be really difficult with what you are going through and to work with your husband too.
I am sure Murphy would do a great job with the blog!
I have a good ear! I had an emotional moment on my blog today. I find it very comforting to talk to my blog friends about happy and sad times. Life just gets to complicated sometimes. WIll keep you in my thoughts! Hang in there.
Murphy looks ready to start bloggin! He’s giving us his best horsey pose there! 😉
Sorry to hear you have to work with your hubby while going through this..I can’t imagine! Do you see each other on a regular basis at work, or are you in different buildings? That has to be really hard. Hang in there. We are all thinking of you!
Murphy looks like a very zany blogger! What a photo!!!!
I can’t imagine what a hard time it is for you. My friend once advised me during a hard time to try to do one thing that I love every day, however small it might be. Perhaps that’s a good rule for you right now.
Hang in.
My husband and I work at the same company. But he is a big shot in one building, while I am a drone that kind of goes from building to building so we don’t run into each other so much. But because he is high up there, everyone knows him and thus me. It feels icky.
KB – You are right and I’m trying to keep that in mind. Taking walks with my dog, riding, writing, and just trying to find things to be thankful for.
Mary…Hang in there. You have great worth and need all your strength to get through this. It’s good that you have your dog and horses as they will support you no matter what. You can do this.
Hi Mary,
My goodness…could it be more uncomfortable??? Working for the same company for 29 years, having met there, and on top of it all the two of you always having been lumped as a couple. No wonder you are having a difficult time focusing at work 🙁
I love KB’s suggestion about doing one thing you love every day.
I remember having a horrible heart wrenching break up when I was younger-I had one dog then, Kootenai, and when I was at my saddest I would bury myself in her fur and let myself cry my heart out. Then I’d hug her tight and say “let’s go have an adventure!”
And we would. And I *always* felt better…still sad, but not so completely empty. I hope little Java can offer you some of that solace.
In the meantime, I think Murphy was trying his best to One Up my Mariah during her Tina Turner imitation. Tell him he made me laugh out loud and that I can’t wait to hear what he blogs about 😀
Hoping you can replace a ittle of that sadness with a giggle or two at your critters each day. They really are beautiful 🙂
Big hug your way!
Sue