We look for the unusual through our camera lens,
but try too often to hide it in ourself.
Yes, I know, there are people
who strive for uniqueness
a brand of “me”
a scarf that took hours to drape just so
layers of mismatched jewelry,
or dramatically madeup eyes.
But who wants to cultivate qualities
parts of self that don’t bring admiration?
Do you seek out confused looks?
Perhaps you’d like a dash of disapproval?
No, I am 99% sure that a support group
for those who crave rejection
would not be well attended.
So many self-help books,
classes and therapists,
the fixer uppers
for our shortcomings.
Too lost in thought
Too caught up in imagination
Reads too much
Doesn’t do well with small talk
or water cooler gossip.
Instead, wants to discuss climate change.
Can you imagine?
Have you seen how she hyperventilates
when people complain about rain
during a drought?
She’s so serious,
way too oversensitive.
So when the cock crows for the third time,
will you say you know thy true self?
Or deny her existence?
– 2013 –
I’ve selected this as the year
I will be kinder to my weird girl.
Embrace the being that is more of a child now
than when she was a child.
I want to give that weird girl
a chance to play
to be her independent,
Without trying to change
What doesn’t need to be changed.